An uphill battle

I was watching Logan the other day at the park. He has only been walking for two months but he acts like he owns the playground. After some meandering around he finally spotted the slide. This was his first experience with it but of course from the stroller he has countless times watched Samantha and Trey.

What is the first thing he does? Tried to climb UP it of course. No matter how many times I took him away from it and showed him something just as cool, he found his way back, over and over climbed and fell, climbed and fell.
So I couldn't help but relate to this. I often want to try the hard way even though I know I won't make it. Out of sheer determination I try to keep the perfect house, be the perfect wife or mom, even try to make the perfect lunch. I know that I can't but when I fail I get back up and try again. When will it be enough?
I trust that God's love is enough but I can't seem to mirror that in my life. My body can't seem to follow my heart's intentions. Calm down, enjoy the moment, follow Him instead of the world.
Maybe, just as Logan learned that day, you can only fall so many times before you have to take a step back and decide if what you are doing is worth it. Then move on hopefully a LITTLE wiser than before.

In these pics... He was on his own, then Samantha tried to lend a hand, then of course Trey gave a push also :)